Delusional Diary

Diary 15/June/12

Dear Diary,

Today was our 11^th anniversary. I was very happy today, infact I still am. This day has always been the happiest day in my life and will always be.

In the whole year, this is the only day when I see sun rising up and dominating its orange color over the blue sky. It is not because I wake up early but because I never sleep the night before.

You would ask why? It is because of the fear of waking up at 11 am as usual. And the bigger fear of making her upset if I reach late. And the biggest fear of breaking my promise and making her wait for hours. I never let this happen with her - on our anniversary.

I started my day doing all the usual errands and eventually I got ready on time. It was a very hard working task to do though. I first tried to match shirt and trousers from my room-mate’s almirah. I then wore his most expensive perfume specially going into the washroom as to not to risk his sleep. I then slowly and smartly picked his new woodland shoes from under his bed. And last but not the least, the most important task was to take out money from his wallet, little enough as not to make him realize, and large enough to buy a sweet and good gift for her. And let me tell you it is the toughest calculation in the world.

After one hour, she picked me from outside my PG, and then we went straight away to GIP. She was insisting on going somewhere else, as that was the only place we always meet. But I had no choice; I only had discount coupons of GIP food court.

I loved the music player installed in her new Honda City. I played all my favorite tracks till we reached our destination.

She was looking very beautiful and gorgeous as ever. I felt very jealous when every single guy turned and looked back at her.

Here is the sad part. She had to go early this time. She said that few relatives are coming over for lunch. We didn’t spend much time together but every single second with her was worth.

We did little supper together, did few good talks. And then we did what I was waiting for long. I looked in her eyes, she looked in my eyes, but whenever our eyes met, she turned her face. She is a very shy girl and that’s the best part in her which I love.

Then her phone rang and she asked to leave. It was such a strong reason that I was not able to ask her to stay for little more time.

Same as every year, she denied taking my gift. She thinks that gifts are just a formality. Real gift is the ‘real love’ which one should give. I would have left the gift in her car, but I later thought that her thinking is also right. I rather should prove my real love for her than giving gifts like these. And I brought the gift back home. After all she did not open the gift to see what’s in it. So I can gift her the same present next year. And ofcourse I will be spared with all those tricky calculations next year. *wink*

She was getting late so wasn’t able to drop me back. It was a genuine reason, I should not think it as being rude and lack of etiquettes.

While we were doing see off, I had tears in my eyes. I wanted her to stay. I wanted to just look in her deep brown eyes for hours. Inside I knew it was not possible.

She waved and went. I stood there for a little more time expecting her to come back and say that she was kidding and was pulling my leg. But it didn’t happen.

But inside I knew that she will come back and we will meet again.

One year later.